Before anyone jumps to any conclusions … I am good. I am happy.
This track was how I felt four years ago. This has been on my mind to put it on here, and I’ve been thinking about it, so if I put it on here now, today, then I won’t think about it any more. This track is about .. suicide. This went over in my mind not long after my marriage fell apart, when I felt worthless and figured my kids could do better than a loser dad.
I don’t think like that any more. Haven’t felt like that for about three years. I will say though, suicide is NOT the answer. What people are going through is not permanent. Suicide IS! There is always someone to talk to.
SUICIDE HELPLINES
UK: Samaritans
USA: USA National Suicide & Crisis Hotlines
AUS: Lifeline Australia
CAN: Canada Suicide & Crisis Hotlines
RoW: Befrienders Worldwide
Alone I Break: Korn
A Mixed Bag 
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It is good to hear that you are ok and having better thoughts about life. I have not listeened to the songs because I don’t htink I could bear it. I still prefer to watch comedies on TV for example I need things to make me laugh, sad stuff, I can’t handle.
Life is a gift, and we should treat it as that. ( I know it is sometimes hard!)
That’s the way I look at it now 🙂 Especially seeing as it was me who got custody of the kids 😉
I did wonder if you were going to make a comment on this post as your blog is a very happy one. 🙂
Thank you
Alastair, I am happy again through a lot of work on myself , lots of selfhelp books and daily affirmations. I have totally changed after my divorce when I was devasted, but life goes on, I also have my boys and I am extremely happy when I can spread happiness. the blogging makes me happy and reading others, so interesting and its wonderful how many lovely people are out there.:-)
Yes it is. Divorce can destroy you, but you have to look at the fact that it is a new beginning which is what you have done, and what I have done now. I have a tattoo of a phoenix which signifies the end of one life and the beginning of another. 🙂
Exactly, we cannot change our past, but we can shape our future and I am determined to have a happy one! We are both on our next step. Make it happy Alistair! Enjoy Life!
Just a thought: you have a tattoo, that would scare me to death, but you don’t like to go to London on your own! How we are different! 🙂
LOL. Yes. I have four tattoos. Pain doesn’t bother me as I live with it constantly, but coming face to face with lots of people … that’s a whole nother matter 🙂
I am rather the other way round, whereas I have to say going through 2 births was painful enough, but worth it!
Yeah, I dind’t have the births part – although I was there for both of mine, and it was the proudest days of my life. A sunny Tuesday morning and a clear Friday night in 1996 and 1998 🙂
Haha, mine were both weekend babies, both on a Saturday, now teenagers they love their weekends in bed too! haha
Children are wonderful and I would not have wanted to live without them!
I know what you mean. Mine are at their mother’s this weekend. It is peaceful sometimes to have a couple of days with out them, but it makes for an extremely quiet house. Especially one of them is a teenage girl LOL
Enjoy the peaceful house! Mine are both quiet boys. Well boys are as teenagers but we have a good loving relationship. Their dad is in America, so no weekends there….and I have no family here either.
Enjoy your weekend, do what you really like to do!
Hehe I do. That’s a bummer. Sometimes having a little while off to recharge the batteries can be a great help.
I have fantastic friends here and they are my oasis sometimes and fun to be with! So I can see them as I can leave the boys at home, they don’t mind, as they are 19 and 15 and they tell me to enjoy life!
Haha Excellent. Mine are 16 and 14 and don’t care LOL
It was lovely to chat with you, but I need to go now. Until the next post! 🙂 looking forward to it! Ute x
Thanks Ute. Was good chatting 🙂
I’m going to hit “like” on this because I am glad that you are in a better place now and I appreciate that you are willing to write about it.
Thank you. Having contemplated it, and even worked out how I was going to do it is not an easy thing to look back on. Even when I’ve felt down in the last couple of years though, it hasn’t crossed my mind. Writing about it – even in this small portion clears part of that out.
This song hits home because this was me in March…..and I am so glad I got the help I needed and now am really a happy person. And I am glad for you that you are in a happy place!! 🙂 You’re a wonderful person my friend.
Thank you Rachel. I did wonder the reaction I would get to this. But if my information helps at least one person then I am happy to have saved a life.
I’m glad you got the help, as I did when I saw a counsellor. She was awesome and would give me a bollocking sometimes for how I was thinking. I am glad that we are both happy people. 🙂
It is good to come out of our dark nights. The reality most of us think at one stage or another about bailing on this life .. Because it can get too hard .. When we choose to stay, we often find the strength to live again, eventually .. And yes sometimes we need to be honest and share our stories .. Then we realise we are not alone 🙂 bright blessings 🙂
Coming on with a strength renewed changed my life. Not immediately, and I still had some low points. Very low in fact, but I wasn’t going to make my kids fatherless. And I won’t.
Thank you Jenn
understandable … it can take ages to pull through .. but it does happen 🙂
Yep. It took a couple of years for me. In a good place now though 😀
I will admit to some dark days many years ago and this song is something I could relate to. Thanks for sharing it Alastair, even if it is not your usual post. Sometimes I think we have to shake it up a bit and talk about subjects that some would rather just sweep under the carpet. 🙂
Thanks LuAnn. I think a lot of people can relate to it, but won’t say anything. I know it’s something I don’t normally mention, but I needed people to know that I am okay, and why I had chosen this track. I’m glad you got through it
You as well. I do believe that these difficult times are our growth periods, although it certainly doesn’t feel like it at the time.
No it doesn’t, At the time it feels like there is nothing else – nothing that can be done and that there is only one option. But we are proof – as are a few of the commenters on here – that there is an end to it. Nobody said it would be easy, just that there is an end 🙂
I don’t “like” this post as such… but I approve and support it… I hope that makes sense…
It does make sense, and I thank you